I just need a minute.

Well when Brian is watching his Indiana Jones, James Bond, or War movies on T.V, I get on the computer and just browse (I don't care to watch those and we only have one T.V with cable). I like to look up people's blogs, facebook, myspace (only because Alex will never use facebook) and I have learned a lot. I have found many people that I once knew at some point in my life and am grateful to reconnect with them and as well as keeping up with people that are currently in my life. Doing this has made me appreciate things in my life more and I have come up with a list that I am so grateful for. Brian because no matter how much crying, complaining, nagging, crying, yelling, reorganizing, crying, calling, whining, murmuring, and crying that I do...he still loves me and shows me that. My mom because no matter how times a day I call her to ask her where to find Lipton soup in Wal-Mart, or why I feel dizzy, or call and complain or cry she is right there to talk, to reassurance, to research and to tell me she loves me and how she knows if something is going on in my life 2500 miles away from her, she always knows! My dad because he has worked so hard all my life to take care of his family, is willing to go to a foreign country to fight for freedom and for his children's children and has no family or friends around him for all 10 months, works in gear head to toe covering his body in 120 degree temps but does it without a complaint, when I complain about the 75 degree weather here and I'm in capris and a tee! I am grateful for Chris, Jeff, Alex, and Marissa for the memories that I have of them when we were young and carefree. The many times that we would play freeze tag with those big green bushes with the winner "written on them". I will forever cherish my brothers and sisters. I am grateful for their spouses and children and the joy that they bring into their eyes. I am grateful for the older sister, Erika. How much I look up to for her diligence and integrity and for being an example and always being here for me. She always has the advice I need. I am grateful for Brian's family. How they have brought Brian up to become the man and husband he is and the example they've shown him. I am so lucky to have friends that will call out of the blue just to see how I am doing and we can pick right where we left off...even if it has been 5 years. I am SO grateful for good health. I am so blessed to be able to carry one of Heavenly Father's creations and be able to raise this child in my own home with a wonderful husband. And lastly I am so grateful for the true Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life. I never fully understood "Families are Forever" until today when I was "researching" people on facebook. I am glad that NO MATTER what happens to any of my family or my children I will one day be with them again. I am glad that I can know that and have comfort in that. I am so grateful for Jesus Christ, offering His life so that I can have a chance to live and repent and raise a family. I am grateful for the Atonement, that when I make mistakes (like I always do) I can repent of those sins and hopefully someday be with my family FOREVER.

So as you can see all because Brian watches those crazy boring movies...what came from it...I learned a lot! :)